No one wants to be afraid but I come out and say that I am I'm afraid of losing what we have I'm afraid that you will leave and it hurt me so much. I feel like this every day not knowing is the worst part because I care about you so much. I know I have to face my fears but I'm scared to do that. I just don't want to see you go. You make me sooo happy. I feel if I have you I will be okay that I can be myself that I love myself the way I am and that no-one can ever put me down. Your the reason I can put my past behind me and everyone that has hurt me or said something to hurt me behind my back. After believing that I can face my fears I know that what ever happens we have each other I'm your clutch and your mine.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Have you ever done something that you regret??
Of course we all do I have regrets to this day. But we move on and we don't let it tear our lives apart. Me I almost let a regret take control over my life. The thing I regret the most is letting him in my life. I have a big heart and I care for people and I consider myself very nice. He took my kindness for granted and till this day I can never forgive him for that. I wasted my time with him and on him. I missed out on a chance with someone that I never will know how it would have turned out. The one I missed out on he was always there for me when I needed him. But I'm glad I have a close relationship with him and that I still have him in my life. So yeah I do regret being with him because of this and because of this he did not deserve a second chance. So I can say I regret this the most. But I won't let this keep me down because I move on and live my life because in the end he means nothing to me. It's crazy how you know feels to be hurt and you still hurt someone in that same way.
Don't hold on to regrets because it will hurt you in the end.
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Friday, May 24, 2013
We are diffrent flowers. We are diffrent shapes, and colors. We all life in many different seasons. Some bloom in the fall, summer,winter,and even spring and we are all still different. There are all kinds of bugs that come and rest on our petals but they might stay for a stort time or a long time. But sometimes they stay there for ever. They go through changes together and in the end they reproduce together. Just because you reproduce together doesn't mean that bug will stay on your petals forever. If that bug is ment to stay on your petals they will and you will know it. No flower is the same so don't close up your petals too fast cause that one bug will want to come and rest on one of your petals. Hope is important don't give up...
Friday, May 17, 2013
Everyone Wants To What's Difference????
Well a lot of people are confused and can't easily tell the difference but if you know how to tell the difference it can be very easy to spot.
Sex can be with a stranger, a friend, or just someone you hook with on the weekend sex is just sex plain and simply. Males and Females sometimes don't understand when it's just sex. If a guy has sex with you and never call it was just sex. If a guy have sex with and rarely talks to you it was just plain on play with but the whole thing is you can get played. Don't get me wrong sex can be intimate it all depends on who the person and how the person feel for that person.
Love is very intimate but it can be mistaken for sex being played when you think its love hurts the most. The person you love can hurt you the most that tell you what you want to hear and there the first one to hurt you.
Having sex when your in love can be amazing it can make you feel like on cloud nine. So don't confuse the too you could get your feelings hurt.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Love takes time to progress and most times you don't realize that the person you love could be right in front of you. It could be the one that was always there and you not know it. But not noticing could backfire and be too late. But if you realize early go after it don't let it get away. Me I fell in love with an amazing man but he didn't feel the same way. It hurts a lot to this day but its nothing I can do about it. I think about him all the time everyday but it comes a time where you have to move on. But how can you when your so confused and lost. You wonder was you was it what could you have done. But I realize it wasn't you girl. Sometimes I wish things can back to the way the were but I don't know how he feels about what happened. How does he feel I would like to know so I can be me again. Nothing hurts more then not knowing. I'm getting through it day by day. Do you remember that feeling when you first start meet a guy and you start texting each other,and you feeling nervous and your smiling and laughing at all the texts. I feel that everyday I don't want to feel this way is hard knowing we can't be together. Love is strong I would rather have you as friend then not all because it would just be hard me not to see you. Be Don't Rush Love cause Love is Patient and Love Is Kind who you love will be amazing because in the end you will feel it too and you will look back and smile.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Growing up your parents want to prepare you for the world. School, Work but that don't prepare you for pain,love,heartbreak, or getting hurt. This kind of pain I wouldn't wish in my worse enemy. People take this a lot of ways its not easy getting over. It's hard work but you have to push yourself to or won't never get over it. Me I don't know how long it will take me but every day is hard.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Accepting life as it comes can be hard sometimes, most it wasn't your decision to get hurt, or be sad. You just have to accept it. At first it can feel like your whole world is falling apart and you don't know what to do. You might not want to get out of bed to face reality but at some point you will have too. Getting over the boulder can be the hardest decision you will ever have to make but after all the tears, the anger, and sadness you will realize that you can over come. You make it over and it will be the best feeling. Me after I get over this boulder I want to myself think about everything that happened to me all the tears I fought hard not to let them fall and wonder where will I be in the end only this long summer journey will tell me.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
That's a question that not only woman ask but men. In my opinion waiting to have sex can be the boat in your relationship. The faster you jump in that boat, the faster it will sink. Sex is important its how you get intimate with the person you care about. Being intimate is really important. Now if that man can't wait to have sex when you want to have sex throw him away. He is not right for you. But there are also men who will wait around just to have sex with you and they are assholes and were not meant for you. There are also Christians who are not intimate until marriage and I very well accept that, but its just not for me. But don't worry that man will come for you when you least expect him to. When he come and he will, you will be happy to know that he waited because he wanted to be with you.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Some are your so called friends are not your real friends. Your real friends would never try to hurt you any way. They are there to laugh at your jokes and always help you through your hard times.College is a good way to learn who your real friends are because when you first start college you want to be friends with every one but after a while the fake ones will fade away. The ones that are still left and are standing by your side they are your real friends. Don't learn the hard way like I did learn early so you don't make the same mistake. Friends don't talk about you behind your back and then lie straight in your face I have met one last semester and when her true colors came out I knew that she is someone that you never tell anything because it will get out that you said something when in fact it wasn't you at all but don't worry the person you thought was your friend was never suppose to be your friend. Two girls are alike with telling people secrets they don't even see it but I do I see how they became friends and why the butted heads. But I'm not worried they will realize when they have no friends and all alone.
So my first year of college well what can I say about it. I went to a lot of parties drank a little bit, study hard, and tried to hang out with friends at the same time. Well I wouldn't call all of them my friends. Some were phoney and fake and most of them were are not close as we were in the beginning. Realise that all people aren't your friends some are assholes who just love to see you miserable. Oh let's not forget the phoney guys I met they spit game to you and then you realise that they only want to fuck. Most men are like that in college. Some act like girls and play with you feelings, but they still want to fuck you just like the jerks. After going through everything my first year in the end I learned some guys just want to get in your pants, they get what they want and never call you or text you, friends arent who they really are, and the people who really care about you will be with you at the end. So look around who is still standing with you.